What the hell was that?

I just posted a blog I wrote in the end of May.
It has been a while beause... because I had been in my blanket (wrapping myself with two layers in the summer) seeking a moment to live my life again after a very strange yet disasterly event, what they call it 'a breakup'. I can imagine some of you thinking "oh, come on, just a breakup!”　Yeah, whatever. It seemed just a breakup... but was there really a relationship to begin with? I am still confused after two years spent with him. Was it a scam? Well, I didn't lend him anything but...hmmm. It's even harder to get over thinking about it because there is absolutely no answer for anything, so I rather not anymore these days. I thought to myself "Did he really exist?" lol But seriously, has anybody had this type of experience? What the hell was that?

Ladies(and some gentlemen), let me tell you things you should never do after a huge disaster like that. First, you should eat no matter how emotionally and physically painful it is to just get out of your bed. I know, I know it's freakin' hard, but I goota tell ya, JUST EAT. I thought I was in danger when it hit about two weeks. I dragged myself to a Doctor's office at last... stupid me.

I have decided not to delete my posts from the past blogging about my relationship with the stranger beecause I wanted to accept it and not to be embarrassed about it.

I am still in the process of recovery. I hated April. I hated May. I even hated June and July. August? I think I might like August. We'll see.

08/05/'10

A month passed.

I'm going through the hardest break-up ever in my life.

I really loved this person.

I thought I was crazy. I was so hurt, confused, angry and sad.

I'm trying my hardest to get over the disaster. Doing every thing and doing nothing to burry my feelings.

My heart doesn't stop aching any time soon, I know.

Thoughts after thoughts in my head, still trying to analyze this non-solvable matter.

I don't need anybody to fully understand how I feel and what I am going through because it is never possible as long as I am who I am and they are who they are.

05/24/'10

Tourist Visa-Brazil

Yes, I got the Visa in my hands! Getting this tourist Visa to go to brazil was such a trouble some for some reason, but finally it's here with me waiting for July to come. On Brazil Embassy Web site, there is a section says that you have to enter Brazil within 90 days from the date Visa issued, but I check with Consulate General of Brazil(Los Angeles), and they informed me that's not the case. Anyways, I'm good for now, and all I'm waiting for is the time to go fast.

Visa pick-up time is only between 2pm-3pm at the consulate. The office will be opened at 2pm for people to get inside, but you gotta go earlier to get in line. I got there at 1pm and I was still not the very first person in line.

Oh, something more than just a Visa this day... I got a parking ticket!!!! Damn it! I parked on a street where the Consulate building is on, thinking it was ok, but there is a little sign says only for residents. 60 bucks...

Seriously?

I have something to tell you. You who? idk...

Statement:

I am moving to Brazil in the end of 2010!

What the hell.

Recently,

These recent years my life has been just a chaos... I don't even know where to start, but anyways, it's just crazy stressful.
Just a while ago I took a breath overcoming the work Visa issue here in the U.S., then now I'm moving to another country this year already! you never know what happens next. Damn it.

Well first, I'm now going through getting a Tourist Visa to visit Brasil in this Summer. OMG, my passport is expiring before Summer! (found out only a few days before the appointment with Consulate General of Brazil) Anyways, I took a day-off from work to renew my passport the other day...

Why renew your Passport before it's too late?
Before Validation: You only need a Passport Photo (2x2), Proof of your current address, Renewal Fee and your Passport.
After Validation: you need all the above, plus Birth Certificate and etc...

So, I need to go pick up my new passport a week from the drop-off... hate the traffic in L.A., but it's all good since I get to enjoy the city on a week day. Haaahhhhh. Or maybe not... just realized that I have an appointment with the Consulate G of B right after...

'IF' this goes smoothly, I then need to prepare for the next step... for something very very important...

Strategy: Just do it ahead of time to avoid troubles.
Tactic: Go to Embassy or Consulate Web site, or contact them somehow to be well prepared.